With you I'm in my mind, without you I'm out it.
"What happened to us?
What happened to the good morning texts
or the goodnight texts?
What happened to calling me beautiful
or even looking at me?
What happened to the all night calls
or even calling at all?
What happened to make your long texts into 3 words?
What happened to you loving me
or even liking me?
What happened to you caring about me
or even just pretending to care.
What did I do?"
"When someone makes you the happiest you ever are and the saddest you ever are, how do you choose if they should be in your life? Are the lows worth the highs? Are there more highs then lows? Why must some of the people that make are hearts thump the loudest make us cry the most? To really be happy you need to let them go but you’re scared that if you let them go you’ll never find the happiness they could bring you ever again. Letting go of someone you love is one of the most difficult tasks in life. To let go you need to be able to love yourself enough to do what’s best for you and to realize that if someone really loves you, they will only bring you happiness and help you through any sadness instead of causing it themselves."
"I missed you every hour. And you know what the worst part was? It caught me completely by surprise. I’d catch myself just walking around to find you, not for any reason, just out of habit, because I’d seen something that I wanted to tell you about or because I wanted to hear your voice. And then I’d realize that you weren’t there anymore, and every time, every single time, it was like having the wind knocked out of me."
"Just because we don’t talk anymore, doesn’t mean that I’ve forgotten about you. It doesn’t mean that I no longer care. Truth is, I still do. I do my best to check up on you, to see how you’re doing. To see if you’re okay, but every time I get the urge to talk to you, it suddenly hits me that, we’re strangers, you don’t want me in your life, hence the reason why I’m no longer a part of you. But, even though everything’s changed; I just want you to know that, I’m still here. I’ll still be here for you, I’ll still lend you my shoulders and ears. I don’t care what time it is, what I’m doing. Don’t hesitate to talk to me, because half the time, i wish that you were talking to me. I just really miss your presence, I miss you being my best friend, I just miss you in general…"
"I just hope that every time you see me you think to yourself “wow I really fucked up” and maybe one day you’ll realize that what you did to me, really wasn’t worth it."
It’s not the breakup that hurts the most.It’s the post trauma that follows it. It is waking up and checking your phone for the messages that isn’t there. it’s like starting your life over again and you have no idea where to begin.
I’m not gonna lie, i cant wait for her to break your heart like you broke mine, i cant wait for the day you realise how much i loved you and the day you wish you’d never let me go. i cant wait for that day because by then i wont care about you, i wont want you back, i’ll be with some other guy who…